Year of “Firsts’

Why NOW ?

More than 13 years of exposure to internet…

10 years in IT industry….

Obvious question is why now, Why I am writing my first blog now ?

Answer I guess lies in one word….FEAR

–of “Does it really matters”

–of “what if it is not good enough”

–of “how people reciprocate to it”

Last one year, yes Viaan turned one recently…..last one year I’ve realized, things that happens for the very first times can’t be perfect…

— First tummy time isn’t perfect….

–First Rollover isn’t perfect…

— First Crawl isn’t perfect….

–First walk definitely is not perfect…

They could be made perfect, if you don’t have above three questions in your mind….being a child, Viaan doesn’t have these questions. A fear free mind doesn’t stop him from trying anything.

Eventually, he became master in all of these and now he doesn’t even have to put any effort into these.

For a moment, I thought what if the fears I have, if those started appearing in a kids mind…

For all his “FIRSTs” (i.e. Rollovers, Crawls and walks), if he had questions like

— Does it really matters

Yes it was not necessary for him, there were people around him always to do his work, to pick him up… to feed him and what not…

— What if it is not good enough

He did fail a lot of time, when trying for the first time, when the world around him was moving so easily, so swiftly…it would have been obvious for him to think that “maybe I am not good enough for this”

— How people will react to it

When a kid falls, honestly it looks cute and people laugh, not with wrong intentions but yet there is laughter. Imagine him thinking “are these people laughing on me ? “, then, I am not sure, if he would have tried it again…

 

All if this makes me believe that all this is nature’s way to keep the ball moving.

One downside of this, which I think is…As the child doesn’t have this thinking capability, he forgets all of this as he grows old and thats when the above mentioned “Fears” starts bothering him again…

But nature is way cooler than we think…it gives us(well to many of us) a chance to relive and realize the same thing again…when you see your kid growing…

This has been “Year of firsts” for both of us… For him it was obvious… for me because I am trying few things which I wouldn’t have tried otherwise…

 

For the first time, I guess I am comfortable in coming out of my “comfort zone”.. I have

–Changed a comfortable job, where I was sitting at a good position…

— trying new things at work, without too much thinking about failure…

— Writing the BLOGS, although I plan to write technical blogs only, but I thought my first one should remind me always on why and how I stared writing them after so long…

Hope this learning continues…